Nothing new here

Just to let you know, nothing exciting or new is happening in my life.

My son won another wrestling match Friday night,(of course I had to work), so I didn't get to see it. My boss is still on vacation and I couldn't call in sick. He'll be back Tues. so I'm going to ask for this Fri. off so I can go to his next match. He's got a terrific record for dual matches this year (only one loss) but the coach doesn't see it. I don't think he's gotten the attention he deserves but that's a dad talking.
The next days paper had another kid headlined that he "lead the team to victory". As a matter of fact it was my son that started the ball rolling with his match. AND, he was the only one that had a pin that night which means he scored the most team points. I guess I'm bias when it comes to my kids but then again, who isn't?

I have jury duty tomorrow. Yippeeee! (yea, right). I'm actually excited about this. Anything I can do to get my ass out of that shit hole of a job at the prison is fine with me. I really hate being there. It's not a very nice environment to be in day to day. It really makes me miserable having to be in that hell hole. Ahh well. Such is life. If we always got what we wanted there wouldn't be much to bitch about now, would there?

On another note,,,,
It's almost the end of Jan., 06 and I haven't had even the slightest bit of sexual activity this year yet. SHIT!
I wonder when my wife is going to come to her senses and realize that I want her. I know most of you have probably gone longer but dammit! This sucks!
I've resolved to never make the first move again. She has never touched me first or even hinted that she might be receptive to some intimacy. It always makes me feel like I'm begging and that it's nothing more then a chore for her. I asked her the other day if she really ever wanted to have sex and she said she "never really thought about it". I said, "Don't you ever want to have sex"? She said, "Well,, yea".
I blurted, "HOW THE HELL WOULD I EVER KNOW"?, Then I walked out and went to work.
That was a week ago and she still hasn't gotten the hint. I'm never asking again.
The problem I have is that I firmly believe that if I NEVER make the first move I'll never get any again in my life!
What do I do now?
I can go ahead and make the move and probably get some but I'm so damned tired of having sex with someone that really doesn't want me. Like I've said a million times, What turnes me on is that I can turn her on. That's what I crave.
I'm at a loss.

I'm not asking for advice. I just need to get that off my shoulders.
Then maybe I'll go masterbate.